Update

Thanks for all the prayers...I feel helpless and useless. She is still in ICU and will be there for at least 2 more days the doctor says. Her breathing is better, the chest tube is still in draining fluid. She lost some blood they think from the chest tube and are giving her 2 more units today. The doctors say that she is improving. But her mental state is not anywhere close to being normal. Thursday night it started, she thought she was at her brothers for a little bit, then she thought she was at Todd's. All the time asking me why I won't let her go home, that she just wants to go home from there and get in her bed beside Daddy.

She tried to pull out her catheter, IV's...refusing to keep her oxygen on. Every 20 minutes she would get riled up and start trying to get out of the bed. She said so many hurtful things to me, and before you all say it...I KNOW I KNOW she doesn't mean them...but right now, right this minute in her mind she means them. I am not taking them to heart really but to know she really feels that way right now more than breaks my heart. I won't go into all she said, but I am so disheartened right now I can barely type this. It isn't like my mom, she is usually the most kind, most sweet woman....she isn't right now. She didn't even want daddy to pray over her. She is having some delusions as well...she thinks they killed a dog in ICU and had a funeral, they are wearing masks and scaring her. She asked to go to KFC, Maggie Valley and Frye Regional Medical center (which is where she is now). The doctors hope that once she gets home in familiar surroundings all of this will go away. They are going to get her up today to move around and I hope that helps.

I came to Scott's parents for dinner and to just chill out. I had a horrible migraine last night and am still nursing that. I don't know what to do, how to help...it seems when ever me or daddy...or anyone really goes in to see her her oxygen levels drop and her heart rate and blood pressure goes up. She gets so aggravated and tries to talk too much. Just please pray for her, pray that she wakes up in her mind. Scott says he looked in her eyes and it was like the real Ruby wasn't there.

I am just so down about her and it is hard to think that she is so mad at me....even said she hated me. I know that it is not her, but it is right now. This is really how she feels right now. It hurts.

I love ya'll and will try to get on Monday and let you know how she is doing.